{"id":2033,"date":"2012-06-04T17:59:18","date_gmt":"2012-06-04T09:59:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/?p=2033"},"modified":"2013-11-16T21:12:40","modified_gmt":"2013-11-16T13:12:40","slug":"weighs-heavy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/2012\/06\/weighs-heavy\/","title":{"rendered":"It Weighs On Me So Heavy"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>it weighs on me so heavy<br \/>\nthat somehow i control my destiny<br \/>\nand i can craft the reality<br \/>\nof a world i&#8217;ll be happy to live in<\/p>\n<p>but the planets and stars and galaxies<br \/>\ncareen out of control<br \/>\nsometimes imploding in on themselves<br \/>\nsometimes drifting into the infinity<\/p>\n<p>and my weight is infinitesimal by comparison<br \/>\nmy choices that seem so crucial<br \/>\nto the continued existence of the universe<br \/>\nmy mistakes that make God cry<\/p>\n<p>amount to mostly nothing in the grand scheme<br \/>\nof everything and everyone<\/p>\n<p>but they matter to me<br \/>\nand my tears are real<br \/>\nand my choices have to matter<br \/>\neven when Feynman argues that they don&#8217;t<\/p>\n<p>because even if matter<br \/>\nwill always be uncertain<br \/>\nthe granularities of the space and time<br \/>\nthat ripple around me<br \/>\nare the only universe I can ever comprehend<\/p>\n<p>and so it weighs on me so heavy<br \/>\nthe regret that orbits around my heart<br \/>\nand what looks like an albatross<br \/>\nand feels like a heavy cross<br \/>\nis just the gravity of my imagination<br \/>\nthe most certain principle of all<\/p>\n<p><em>-Draft One<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>it weighs on me so heavy that somehow i control my destiny and i can craft the reality of a world i&#8217;ll be happy to live in but the planets and stars and galaxies careen out of control sometimes imploding in on themselves sometimes drifting into the infinity and my weight is infinitesimal by comparison [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":2420,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[14,3],"tags":[2017,2016,339,2018,1433,2014,2010,2012,2013,2015,2019,2011],"class_list":["post-2033","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-poetry","category-writing","tag-destiny","tag-galaxies","tag-god","tag-gravity","tag-physics","tag-planets","tag-poem","tag-richard-feynman","tag-space-time","tag-stars","tag-tears","tag-uncertainty-priniciple"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2033","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2033"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2033\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2679,"href":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2033\/revisions\/2679"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2420"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2033"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2033"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/entropy2.com\/chaosfactory\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2033"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}